So I went through a crappy spell. I'm doing muuuch better now. Something about sunlight makes everything better. I accepted a job I like more. I am thinking I'm about to get another job offer and I'm not sure what the etiquette on taking it is... both are better than anything else i've had in a long time.

I have been going to this Episcopal church in the most inner city part of the small area I live in (well there is a city that's more cityish about 25 miles away but i mean here). They have a soup kitchen and they believe in social justice and that makes me happy. It came up in conversation after church when we were all sitting down to lunch with the homeless people that the kitchen feeds, that there is a catholic worker house in norfolk... I think I'm going to start volunteering there. If you don't know anything about the catholic worker movement you should look into it. Dorothy Day has been my hero since I was 15. I didn't understand the idea of christian anarchism at the time, but I knew she was an extraordinary force for good in the world and that was enough.

Kody and I are doing much better. We both got depressed and we both said things that hurt each other... some of it was us being insenitive to each other and some of it was that we were both being oversensitive within ourselves... not a good combination.

Kody's pay isn't being docked for that overpayment anymore and we're about to be doing much better off. This is awesome because now we can give back to this community and work on saving for our eventual move back to the west coast.

also i briefly left this journal and started another one which i barely wrote in but i was feeling tied to the past and this journal has come with me through a lot... the flip side of that being that it holds a lot of baggage. i'm setting all of that free though. i'm moving forward and it's okay to look back without living in the past.

i guess what i'm saying is, i'm okay and i'm going to be okay and i just need to remember who i am and act like it. i can't get bogged down and give up... because honestly, i'm an incredible force for change and goodness in the world if i let myself be... and just because i can't single handedly accomplish all the things think up doesn't mean i'm not doing anything... yeah.